female, nineteen, aspiring rcmp officer.
little by little, you're just letting yourself become [you].
I think she was afraid to love sometimes.
I think it scared her.
She was the type to like things that were concrete, like the ocean. Something you could point to and know what it was... And I think that's why she also struggled with love. She couldn't touch it. She couldn't hold on to it and make sure it never changed.
(via fuckyeahgirlcrush)every lonely monster needs a companion
gpoy. i’ve barely slept this past week and the stress and excitement of seeing my absolute best friend ever is wearing me to the breaking point. i’m happy to have two full days off before going back to work the overnight friday, but i’m pretty sure that i won’t be able to sleep.
can i legit marry my bed? i would, right about now.Rok Rok
you’re going to ask why this is so hard for me. that i’m a writer, and writers should be able to put to ink their thoughts and feelings. that’s all a misconception, and i’m starting to feel even more alone as the days grow shorter and the nights get colder. it frustrates me to a point that you can’t even comprehend because no matter how hard i try, nothing i write is good enough.
nothing i ever do is good enough.
(via mrgaddess)The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter
^ this is what happens to me. i just shut down and can’t talk, can’t move, can’t do anything except for sitting there and thinking. most of the time, i can’t even think. my mind goes blank and i sit there in a void. nothing will rouse me out of it. i just want you to know this in the case that you ever find me like this. i don’t wanna scare you, i just want you to know to leave me alone.
(Source: , via florenceandthepoutines)Hello, there. This is my Online Diary.
ehh, it’s horrid. some days i feel so amazing about myself, but the majority of them i don’t. i just don’t know what people see in me sometimes.
(via eyeqasm)You are a little soul carrying around a corpse.
^ every single fucking time.Love all. Trust few. Do wrong to no one.
too bad i can’t even make any decisions without fucking them up.
my boss lady says this because i can balance a till for work and take out the remaining money, calculating all the rolled coin and bills without a calculator.Wild Child
(via sunshineandwonders)You wanna know how I got these scars?