October 15, 2011
this is exactly how i feel right now. at the very earliest, i’m able to fall asleep by five am for a few hours. i would then have to be up for a shower by nine to get into town for class two hours later. i feel like a zombie, shuffling along. i’m bruised and broken and bleeding through my skin.
everything’s a copy of a copy of a copy.
my waking world becomes a sort of twisted dream where i’m forced to drag my corporeal body day after day. i’ve started seeing things at the corners of my vision, in the mirrors that adorn my room. i’m paranoid and frightened beyond belief, but that’s not going to be able to pull me out of the depths of this insomnia.
the last time it was this bad, i would have done anything to be able to fall asleep.
now i’m not sure what i’d have to offer.
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October 17, 2011
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October 25, 2011
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November 6, 2011
i love the fact that i could recognize the music from the sex scene in fight club from all the way upstairs in my room when dad was watching it in the living room.
November 12, 2011
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November 16, 2011
December 5, 2011
Author Chuck Palahniuk first came up with the idea for the novel after being beaten up on a camping trip when he complained to some nearby campers about the noise of their radio. When he returned to work, he was fascinated to find that nobody would mention or acknowledge his injuries, instead saying such commonplace things as “How was your weekend?” Palahniuk concluded that the reason people reacted this way was because if they asked him what had happened, a degree of personal interaction would be necessary, and his workmates simply didn’t care enough to connect with him on a personal level. It was his fascination with this societal ‘blocking’ which became the foundation for the novel.
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December 16, 2011
fact; now that i’m not as stressed, the insomnia has subsided. first semester is over, and i don’t have anyone bothering me. i’m allowed to make my own choices regarding my relationships with people and how i want to live my life, without any interruptions.
like fionna says, i think the reason i got all these guy friends and no boyfriend is because i don’t really wanna date any of ‘em. i don’t need to feel like i’m waiting to be noticed. i know who i am and i’ll know what i want if and when it ever comes along, but until then, i’m happy with what i’ve got right now.
nothing seems like a copy of a copy of a copy anymore. the snow is crisp, the air is clear, and i’m feeling like i haven’t felt in a long time: perfectly content with my life.
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December 27, 2011
January 6, 2012
i wrote about this in one of my big papers for intro to lit as well as my take home christmas final. such a good quote!
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January 10, 2012
Tomorrow will be the most beautiful day of Raymond K. Hessel’s life. His breakfast will taste better than any meal you and I have ever tasted.
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January 18, 2012
The anti-piracy warning on the Fight Club DVD
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January 22, 2012
![“You have to see […] how the first soap was made of heroes.” Think about the animals used in product testing. Think about the monkeys shot into space. “Without their death, their pain, without their sacrifice […] we would have nothing.”](http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lwyiaiWi4E1qzj861o1_1280.jpg)
“You have to see […] how the first soap was made of heroes.”
Think about the animals used in product testing.
Think about the monkeys shot into space.
“Without their death, their pain, without their sacrifice […] we would have nothing.”
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January 23, 2012
February 1, 2012
i feel tired.
not just in the i-didn’t-get-a-good-sleep kinda way, but in a my-bones-ache way. i go through the motions, following the great plan laid out for me, without second guessing anything.
i may not have had school today, but i can’t go back to the rest state that many call bed. i’m about to leave for the day, to run errands and to cash bonds for school and then to work nine hours from three until midnight. i’m behind on my schoolwork and my coursework for this weekend and all i want is a good night’s sleep.
because i sleep, if you could even call it sleeping, for when i am finally able to fall asleep, the nightmares plague me.
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